juz ranting

u ever told me how your ex treated you tats y u break wif them...but u all got quarrel cas of asking too much ma?as in asking q...u ever had rs tat control u so much tat u cant even hav contact wif guys cas of the ex don like it..u don like it but still u were still wif him right?hmm...somethings i didd ask you tat clearly so maybe i not so sure about it.my personality really u cannot tahan le ah?really tat hopeless le ma?they(ex) hav control u so much but still u still can tahan them for some time..u told me tat u broke wif one of them cas he had too much girl friends n u cannot tahan...but u also got alot guy friends ah...i also tahan le..its not about not trusting u..i trust u u comfirm wont do much..but it juz felt weird tat u r always having so much guys friend texting u n those...its like...y don juz tell them to stop smsing all those..i know u did some on some of them cas u felt tat they were realli too irritating for u.but i felt irritated by so many guys o-.-i kept quiet as i thought tat at least u r more happier in tat way as i know tat u r having friendship* problems so comfirm it would be very fk up of me to stop u.some more u also say before its your life too...when u say its your life i cant say much cas i'm afraid tat u will be unhappy..i juz wanted you to be happy o-_- i mean can u juz complain me more tat u r not happy wif me tis n tat rather tat now u buai tahan le n juz say break up?i really still cant believe tat u told me u had no more feelings on me le...its more like u juz heck care about me le..y muz u juz give up on me juz like tat?!i know u got feelings so do i!i feel hurt but even if u did u din express to me ah..expressing to me really become so hard le ah?its not like i'll eat u up leh-.-''
i know some parts might be childish of me ba...but i'm always growing ah...u have become mature might be good n bad in a way..but din u ever wanted to change me?i'm still trying hard to change for u yet u choose to end it.i mean we r all growing up y dont u wanna let us grow up n change better?u know u got some attitude i of cas also will hav de ma....i want to change..u always said u wanted to change..but your attitude is getting worst on me..i guess me too..as i had said i'm really sorry..
am i really so not important to u le?such a worthless guy to hang on wif le?arnt there anything tat i'm worth for you le?